Weightloss journey – day 1 (aka see how fat I am)

This is a tricky post for me. I probably shouldn’t share this… but I need to lose weight and get healthy, and I am hoping this will give me the kick I need. This post is my starting point. Where I stand today, and what’s going on in my mind.

I have posted before about how overweight I am, and how unhappy I was about it. I also posted about how determined I am to get in shape, fit and healthy.  Well I failed, miserably. Every time I get to that “time of the month” I allow myself to slip, and by the end of it I’ve given up totally.

Now the long-awaited “PureGym” has opened near me, and I have turned 26. I have to sort myself out.

The Pros and Cons

The downsides of being this big.

  1. I dread buying new clothes because I hate how they look on me.
  2. I avoid people from my past as I’m ashamed of how I look.
  3. I also dread meeting new people.
  4. I worry about getting myself physically STUCK in small spaces.
  5. I ache. I feel physically unfit. More so than ever before.
  6. I worry I’ll not be able to run and play with Olivia the way she may expect in years to come.
  7. I spend a lot of money on shitty food – like 3 chocolate bars from the vending machine at 70p a pop.
  8. It’s shameful and embarrassing to recount the food I have eaten some days.
  9. The nice clothes don’t fit. Fashionable things aren’t designed for my shape.
  10. My C-section scar is in the crease where my stomach flops overs (*gags*) and it gets hot and hurts.

Plus sides of being this big

  1. It’s easy. Requires no self-control or discipline.
  2. I can eat and enjoy whatever food I like.
  3. All my current clothes fit.

Fat score = Positives: 3 negatives: 10, so 3-10 = -7

Downsides of getting fit

  1. It’s hard work
  2. The gym and associated clothes cost money.
  3. It takes time and effort to prepare healthy food.
  4. Loss of my “veg in front of the TV” time every other day.

Plus sides of getting fit

  1. I will look SO much better.
  2. I will feel SO much better.
  3. I will regain my confidence and go out more socially.
  4. I’ll spend less on piles of crap.
  5. That smug feeling slim people have as they decline the 2nd cupcake – I’ll have that.
  6. I will know I can walk into any shop and buy something NICE, that fits and compliments me.
  7. I may be able to walk in super high heels without my ankles screaming.
  8. I can take up a sport that I enjoy.
  9. I’ll be able to join zumba type classes without worrying I’ll die a humiliating death within 5 minutes.
  10. Massive reduction in the risk of many diseases – inc type 2 diabetes and High blood pressure that my Mum developed in her late 40s.
  11. I’ll be able to run and skip and jump with Olivia until we both flake out
  12. Olivia will have less risk of growing up obese and unhealthy.

 

Fit score = Positives: 12 negatives: 4, so 12-4 = 8

Fat Score -7 vs Fit score 8.

No Brainer really isn’t it? If each disease had a point of its own it’d be through the roof, and Olivia growing up truly happy and healthy would have a few thousand itself.

I’ll be taking myself to the gym every other day once Madam is in bed, and managing my food intake. I’ve started up my thinking slimmer slimpod again. I still don’t know if it works as I never manage to keep it up long enough. This time has to be different.

Now for the tricky bit…

My current measurements and pics.

Taken on 11th June 2012, my 26th Birthday.

Pictures taken on day 1 of true weight loss journey

 

Height 5’ 1”                                         Weight 13st 9lb                                 BMI 36.1

Bust 44”

Smallest part of Waist 39.5”

Waist band 47”

Hips 48”

Thighs – Left 27” Right 27”

Calves – Left 17.5” Right 17.5

Arms – Left 15” Right 15”

 The plan is to come back each month and repeat this post, to compare progress. Please feel free to follow me on twitter here and kick me up the backside with some encouragement, and please leave any tips or advice you have below in the comments.

 

Thank you!

 

Frankee x

 

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14 responses to “Weightloss journey – day 1 (aka see how fat I am)

  1. Mossy

    Good luck lovely!!! I know you can do it! Your so brave for posting pic’s I’ll be following you all the way and if I can help in any way I will :). I’ll also be losing weight with you so you can kick my arse if I slip up :) xxx

  2. Well done for deciding to do somehting about it. Do not be disheartened by numbers, weights and measurements. You have done the hardest part. Think of today as day 1 of your new beginning. Your measurements will only reduce from now on.

    I remember this day so well. It was around a year ago for me. I saw the numbers and felt disgusted with mysef, i thought well its bad anyway so what harm will another cake do.

    I started my own place to write things down. Good bad or ugly this was my place to put it and also a place to look back on when I needed motivation.
    http://mummysmission.blogspot.co.uk/2011/07/harsh-reality-check.html this my post with measurments, this was already a little while in, I was 16st 8 before getting pregnant. We have similar measurements. I ought to do new measurements really and see how its going.

    A little bit of effort will soon have its benifits. Even 30 minutes walking a day is better than sitting on your bum like I had been doing. I am now on week 6 of the NHS couch to 5k program. I never in my life thought I could run to the end of the block, let alone further. Two nights ago I ran for 20 minutes without stopping. It feels fantastic. I still have alot of weight to go but its better than this time last year.

    You only need a cheap t–shirt, jogging bottoms and a sports bra and then off you go. Running/walking is effective and cheap.

    Good luck, feel free to moan on twitter or e-mail me if you want anyone to moan to or provide regular kicks up the bum snafflesmummy1@googlemail.com

  3. MAMA!!! Take it day by day! You got this! I am here if you need support!!! <3<3

  4. Well done on the first step Frankee!!! You can do it, just take it one step at a time. X

  5. Nicki Hickman

    Oh babe, absolutely everything you have written I feel the same. HUGE respect to you for this – you’re an inspiration to Olivia and don’t be so hard on yourself. Don’t know what help I can be, but I’m 100% behind you chick, sending lots of love & positivity, hope you achieve your goal xxxx

  6. Hey! You can do this girl!! In October 2010 I was 14 stone 12 and this morning I was 11.6 ! I’m 38 and I wish i had done this years ago. I’ve missed out on loads of things I could have done with my two. You go girlfriend!! Xx

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